nearly a month later and yet similar thoughts.
i'll get excited about the next day's classes, but the moment i wake up, i no longer want to take part in the school day.
at other times, i think about why i'm in university, seeing as i don't have to much of a future, mainly because i don't know where i should be guiding my academic future, no real direction leads to no real motivation. two housemates have dealt with their difficulties by reapplying to new programs and new universities. i've talked about it, but haven't done anything. i'm kind of the opposite. had so many great ideas of how to figure out new paths, and i abandonned them all. exchange to australia? didn't bother checking out application requirements. summer exchange to china? same path, cept my parents are bugging me about it more.
poop poop poop. i don't want to do this. i don't want to go back to 'sauga, but what's the use of staying here if i'm not doing anything productive? maybe i should put more hope in linguistics. maybe that will take me somewhere.
education poops me out so bad i've lost my appetite. for good. -_-"
in need of a destination,
L
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Of all the options on the table at the moment, take the summer exchange in China. Assuming this is a cultural learning program, it is a good opportunity and will help show you your roots, perhaps even give some more inspiration.
1) it'll keep you outta sauga for a month or so in a foreign country
2) it'll give you some time away from having to think about such things
3) you'll make new friends and see new things
wth! no anonymous? foiled
Hey don't worry it doesn't get better when you get older.....hahah doesn't that sound like sunshine? I still don't know what I truly want to do. Sometimes I think it's going to fall from the sky. But eventually somewhere somehow people find their ways I guess? Otherwise we'd always carry around maps and my pockets aren't big enough for that
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