a coming together of gradual comfort

Hier soir, les étudiants année 2 sont rencontrés pour le dîner. C’était la première fois que nous sommes assier ensemble dans presque une année. Au début il y avait quelques conversations entre les personnes du même université, ou entre les bonnes amies. Il a pris du temps avant que les conversations sont changés à être moins exclusives. Le dîner m’a laissé un peu hésitant. Après le dîner, les filles sont allées faire des courses à Square One. Nous sommes resté dans le magasin de souliers pour presque une heure, jusqu’au temps que le centre commercial est fermé. Après cela, nous avons loué une filme (Dan in Real Life) et nous sommes aller chez quelqu’un pour le regarder. C’est une bonne filme. Près du fin du nuit, je sentais moins maladroit, mais la sensation de ne pas appartenir me reste avec.

a conversation of the hearts

catching up with a friend
dinner
thought provoking discussion

we should do it more often

that was refreshing

exam period has started.
i've still only written one exam.
Tomorrow is my second exam.
Studying has been mighty slow.

went to the gym today.
kinda want to go out for a run.
seems like a good idea.
should be studying though.

sirens are wailing.
i feel like just lying in the dark soaking in
the sounds, the breeze, the smells, the air
summer's coming :)

something happened last night.

we were supposed to have house sharing. the first in 3 months. we had decided to scrap the dinner part so that we could either do homework/whatever else had to be done on our own time.. and then meet at 10 to start sharing. the boys left by 1020.. so we're 20 minutes behind schedule already. we started waking people up around 1030 to let them know we were going to start. by 1045, 4/5 people are ready. we can't get in contact with the last person. we swear she's in her room, we assume she's ignoring us but we're still trying to get her to respond. we bang on her door, her window, have people call her. we keep trying to make sure she is in her room and alive until about 1120. by this point, we don't even care if she doesn't want to be part of our sharing or if she's actually passed out, we just want to know that she's alive. and as i stood in front of her door with another one of my housemates half-attempting to pick her lock with a screwdriver, i realized... we still care. although we've expressed so many times to each other that we were simply annoyed and frustrated, although i've told joe that i simply don't care anymore, and i could care less if things had changed drastically and if the future changed because of it, i realized that all those words were just words and horrible expressions of frustration. as we sat in the living room helpless, we realized that beyond all the surface tension, we still really cared about her well-being. i guess that's one of those inexplicable weird things about love.

we ended up starting to share around 1130. an hour and a half behind schedule. it was exciting to see such good changes in people's lives. that the negative had gotten better, and even though there was new "bad stuff" we were all aware of how to deal with it, that we were really relying on God to take hold of it, and that we would be obedient to whatever He had in store for us. i was excited at how willing she was to share. this is definite growth from the beginning of the year when she was really reluctant and shy of sharing, but she was completely prepare to make her statement of not knowing what to share about immediately after the last person had finished. she knew it was her turn and she spoke up. she knew we would be listening to her next and she was ready. it was... comforting.

i woke up this morning around 930. rolled around in bed and smiled at the warmth. i heard kchow playing the piano, tiff talking excitedly about something, and the giggling turning into screaming as christina starts to harrass her. i finally get out of bed at 1045 because my printer randomly turned on and it scared me. i make breakfast, bake some croissants.. and go halfway up the stairs to mingle with the girls.
by 1215 we all walk to the bus stop together, talking excitedly.

today was a lot of fun. the weather is amazing. and i'm really happy.. wow.. happy on a mondya. that's amazing. Praise God!