I think I'm pretty excited for class/school this year. I was walking from the gym earlier, and I had a feeling of optimism,
This is going to be a good year. On the way home from the bus stop, I was thinking about how this is an opportunity to re-discover myself and grow outside of the shelter of ACF. Living in a house where all of us are just thrown together, it's been pretty cool that we mostly get along and talk occasionally. In the past two weeks alone, I think I met more people outside of ACF than in the three years living at Summit. Having lived with people I was comfortable with prior to moving in with them, I had no need to venture out. Even now, I still know ACF people who live in Summit, but I'm also being given opportunities to meet people who are neighbours, not by choice, but by God.
Being "on my own" is really pushing me to "get out there" and "take charge" of my life, in the sense that I can't just expect things to happen a certain way anymore. It's kind of like a preparation for "real life" and what's to come upon graduation. Honestly, I'm still not sure what is going to happen in May; I have an idea that I'll continue to work at the mall until I find a "solid job" related to my field of study. But realistically, who knows how long that'll take. And, I mean, no rush, but in the mean time, what am I going to do about housing? Am I going to continue renting a place in London until I find my career? Will I move home and transfer, or start something completely new?
You think that you have your life planned out enough to give you an outline of where to go, but there are so many other questions that have been left unanswered.
In the past two days of class, I've had classes conducted purely in French. I thought it would be a struggle, especially after not having spoken it in so long, or been exposed to it. Surprisingly, I was very comfortable and actually eager to participate in those classes. It reminds me of the feeling of being in Montreal. Now, I don't know if it's because it's a passion re-visited, or simply a change of pace, but I'm starting to really like the idea of transitioning to francophonism.
There's a free concert on Concrete Beach tonight; K-OS. Was thinking about visiting it for a bit. I feel like I'm living up 1st year all over again. Taking the chances I was afraid would shape me for the worst. Maybe then when I was insecure and lost, it was the safer choice.
Praise be to Him who seeks and saves the lost
