the email has been sent.
one response. it was expected, because she was going to send out the email herself.
Still waiting for more responses.
Stage Two - Reaction: In Progress
Stage Three - Action: Needs Action
Monday, March 31, 2008
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Debrief
- 30 Hour Famine
- KCF/ACF Pot Luck
- Miscellaneous
1. I believe it was a success in terms of organization and follow through. No major problems, not that many minor problems either. It ran pretty smoothly. Yay~! We also surpassed our goal in the last week of fundraising. Super cool. Props to God.
2. It was... "awkward". Tried to initiate conversation, not that much reciprocation, especially with the girls. Sometimes I hate girls. So unwilling to open up, always sticking to pre-existing cliques. I mean, we tried to talk to them, but they weren't very responsive, would always turn back to people they already know, or refocus on attention to a new conversation initiated by an "old friend". It was really frustrating for the most part. So decided to use the "awkward loser" approach by asking a guy I already knew to introduce me to other people he knew. That worked out better. The guys are definitely more willing to incorporate people and make them feel welcomed. Jesunim tangshin'er sarangheyo.
Koreans have fun games though. We learned "Bunny Bunny", "Frying pan Game", and "Pa Bo". Fun times once the games were started, but the girls aren't much for conversation. By the end of the night when we all left, it was still kind of awkward goodbyes. Not the best progress made. Should have made a greater effort earlier in the year. Should have acted on my thoughts rather than wait it out.
3a. I think I'm going to take up Jess Kearon's offer to be on Unity Committee next year. I've really limited myself to my bubble this year and I keep talking about breaking out of it. So last night was step one. Thanks to Joe for reminding me. Moving forward, commit to Unity Committee.
3b. Tiff and I talked today. Are we losing House Unity? Is our House straying as Christians? Less accountable for each other, drifting in focus, lacking support. Things have changed. We need to speak up and fix things.
All you can do is pray
Monday, March 24, 2008
it's weird.
i feel very refreshed right now. even though i still have to finish this interview report that was due today. i have until tomorrow to send it in.
i think i have a lot of stuff to do in the next two weeks (finish french labs ... start french labs, rather; work at the Mandarin; linguistics assignment; study for exams?) i feel really excited. I'm looking forward to something. I don't know what. maybe the end of school. I'm excited to finish school. but that means work full-time. am I excited about that?
I want a really interesting job. I'm not complaining about the Mandarin. It's good. Kind of repetitive though. However, it allows me to do more than one task: Answer the phone, take reservations, take take-out/delivery orders, capture credit cards. So it's not boring per se, but perhaps a little... repetitive. I now know how to talk to people over the phone, but it's almost like i've lost my in-person person skills.
I want to find another job (not quit Mandarin) just, another job on the side. perhaps PT both? Have a higher variety of things to do? Demetres perhaps, heard it was hiring.
This sociology of work class, is very depressing. If I actually pay attention, I learn about a lot of depressing things that happen in the "real world" how people don't really care about others. It makes me realize that I really have limited myself to a Christian bubble. It's like I've forgotten what the "real world" is about. I feel that sometimes I was more aware in high school than I am in university. I don't listen to the radio, I've stopped reading even the Gazette. I still get Macleans but I rarely read it now. I've lost a lot of the things that I developed to help educate myself of the outside world. I'm stuck in a university bubble.
I know that last year, I would express that some people were stuck in the little social bubbles, barely talking to people outside. This year, I got stuck in that situation myself. I don't know how to get out, cuz I've gotten myself so stuck into it. My lifestyle has developed so that I talk to only my house mates and a very limited number of people outside my house. I rarely talk to the people from asian clubs, my friends are all ACFers...
i've gotten so involved in Christian-related things.. that..i feel lost.. and.. useless to the world... all the skills and knowledge that I have gathered in life, has been put into this closet... i know there's the whole "new life" thing.. but.. i'm not sure if i'm quite happy with it right now.. it's like i'm limiting myself.. and.. not.. very.. *sigh* i duno.
am i going backwards?
i feel very refreshed right now. even though i still have to finish this interview report that was due today. i have until tomorrow to send it in.
i think i have a lot of stuff to do in the next two weeks (finish french labs ... start french labs, rather; work at the Mandarin; linguistics assignment; study for exams?) i feel really excited. I'm looking forward to something. I don't know what. maybe the end of school. I'm excited to finish school. but that means work full-time. am I excited about that?
I want a really interesting job. I'm not complaining about the Mandarin. It's good. Kind of repetitive though. However, it allows me to do more than one task: Answer the phone, take reservations, take take-out/delivery orders, capture credit cards. So it's not boring per se, but perhaps a little... repetitive. I now know how to talk to people over the phone, but it's almost like i've lost my in-person person skills.
I want to find another job (not quit Mandarin) just, another job on the side. perhaps PT both? Have a higher variety of things to do? Demetres perhaps, heard it was hiring.
This sociology of work class, is very depressing. If I actually pay attention, I learn about a lot of depressing things that happen in the "real world" how people don't really care about others. It makes me realize that I really have limited myself to a Christian bubble. It's like I've forgotten what the "real world" is about. I feel that sometimes I was more aware in high school than I am in university. I don't listen to the radio, I've stopped reading even the Gazette. I still get Macleans but I rarely read it now. I've lost a lot of the things that I developed to help educate myself of the outside world. I'm stuck in a university bubble.
I know that last year, I would express that some people were stuck in the little social bubbles, barely talking to people outside. This year, I got stuck in that situation myself. I don't know how to get out, cuz I've gotten myself so stuck into it. My lifestyle has developed so that I talk to only my house mates and a very limited number of people outside my house. I rarely talk to the people from asian clubs, my friends are all ACFers...
i've gotten so involved in Christian-related things.. that..i feel lost.. and.. useless to the world... all the skills and knowledge that I have gathered in life, has been put into this closet... i know there's the whole "new life" thing.. but.. i'm not sure if i'm quite happy with it right now.. it's like i'm limiting myself.. and.. not.. very.. *sigh* i duno.
am i going backwards?
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
but i couldn't see...
i woke up today feeling like -_-"
i remember vaguely dreaming about meeting Chris Tomlin in between sessions at PassionDC and him leaving his guitar in my care. For some reason, in my dream, i knew what type of guitar he owned and its value. I was holding it as he went to the washroom, and when he came out he walked right past me and went into the stadium. Another random thing I remember is, that "my guitar" was Gavin's. And while I was standing stupidly in the hall with Tomlin's guitar in hand, he had somehow stolen mine and was playing it on stage. At that point I made a mental note: Tell Gav that Chris Tomlin is playing with his guitar. More randomness that I don't remember, and then I woke up annoyed that I had to go to school, feeling totally unmotivated, not wanting to go through today.
I should be excited. The first time my small group is getting together in a while. We're going to Deliware to hand out frosh packages and talk to people on Abby's floor. I should be excited. This is exactly what I've been talking about for so long. Getting out of our comfortable bubbles and jumping into the dark, cold waters. Yet, I almost don't care. I just want to lie in bed all day and wait for time to pass by.
I should be psyched. I got a job interview today at the Mandarin. First job opportunity in... a really long time, since my Build-A-Bear group interview back in first semester. Talked to Gav about it yesterday, he got excited. Probably a little more than I did. Honestly though, I don't know why it happens. Every time something exciting happens to me, or if I get an opportunity to advance somewhere, (a) people are more excited than I am (b) I get super moody that day and I let it affect my performance.
FRICK! it's only been an hour. I still have another hour of Linguistics. I really just want to get out of here. and ... I don't know... mope.
I need to do my Sociology of Work interview, do library research. I don't want to. Gonna fail the course. Hate it. No motivation. Don't even care.
I'm back in my "I don't care" depressed mood. How long is this one going to last?
Hate studying.
I'm so pessimistic today.
Just want to drop out of school and crawl into a box and die.
-_-"
Why am I so emo?
qwertyuiop[]\
asdfghjkl;'
zxvbnm,./
... that the joke was on me
i remember vaguely dreaming about meeting Chris Tomlin in between sessions at PassionDC and him leaving his guitar in my care. For some reason, in my dream, i knew what type of guitar he owned and its value. I was holding it as he went to the washroom, and when he came out he walked right past me and went into the stadium. Another random thing I remember is, that "my guitar" was Gavin's. And while I was standing stupidly in the hall with Tomlin's guitar in hand, he had somehow stolen mine and was playing it on stage. At that point I made a mental note: Tell Gav that Chris Tomlin is playing with his guitar. More randomness that I don't remember, and then I woke up annoyed that I had to go to school, feeling totally unmotivated, not wanting to go through today.
I should be excited. The first time my small group is getting together in a while. We're going to Deliware to hand out frosh packages and talk to people on Abby's floor. I should be excited. This is exactly what I've been talking about for so long. Getting out of our comfortable bubbles and jumping into the dark, cold waters. Yet, I almost don't care. I just want to lie in bed all day and wait for time to pass by.
I should be psyched. I got a job interview today at the Mandarin. First job opportunity in... a really long time, since my Build-A-Bear group interview back in first semester. Talked to Gav about it yesterday, he got excited. Probably a little more than I did. Honestly though, I don't know why it happens. Every time something exciting happens to me, or if I get an opportunity to advance somewhere, (a) people are more excited than I am (b) I get super moody that day and I let it affect my performance.
FRICK! it's only been an hour. I still have another hour of Linguistics. I really just want to get out of here. and ... I don't know... mope.
I need to do my Sociology of Work interview, do library research. I don't want to. Gonna fail the course. Hate it. No motivation. Don't even care.
I'm back in my "I don't care" depressed mood. How long is this one going to last?
Hate studying.
I'm so pessimistic today.
Just want to drop out of school and crawl into a box and die.
-_-"
Why am I so emo?
qwertyuiop[]\
asdfghjkl;'
zxvbnm,./
... that the joke was on me
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